I Wanna Get Better, by Bleachers

I've been posting the top songs you need to know to know me, and there's nothing on that list (maybe) higher than Bleacher's I Wanna Get Better.

This song came out in 2014, at a time when I was going through some really serious shit. I had schizophrenia--I had started showing symptoms in 2011--but I wasn't going to be officially diagnosed until 2017. And things were just really, really, desperately bad.

At the same time, my oldest kid was also beginning to show signs of an anxiety disorder and was struggling in school (we would later learn that he was autistic and also bipolar).

And then I Wanna Get Better came out, and it was his and my theme song. Every single morning while I was driving him to freshman year of high school, we would blast this in the car and sign it at the top of our lungs.

The verses themselves don't necessarily relate to Jonas or me, because they're very personal to Jack Antonoff. He's basically going through every traumatic experience that he's had in his life, from 9/11 to a bad acid trip to the death of his sister. He says, according to Wikipedia, that this song is his "mission statement".

Well it became Jo and my mission statement. Because we both desperately, desperately wanted to get better from these things that we, at the time, did not understand at all.